I will not be moved

Wow- you never know when you're going to have to actually "practice what you preach!" Up until 3pm today, it was just a regular day. Big kids to school, Joshua to Mother's Morning Out, me to work...then pick Joshua up @ 2 & head home. He felt feverish when I picked him up so I took his temp when we got home. 102.4 Gave Advil. 30 minutes later, 101.4. Feeling confident that I had things under control, I began cleaning up the kitchen from the morning race. (Does anyone else clean up breakfast @ 3pm? You'd think I could get that done before leaving, but more often than not, the mess awaits my afternoon arrival.) Around 3pm, Joshua begins to have a seizure. I laid him on his left side & began timing the dreadful occurrence. After 1 minute, I called 911. I was home alone with him & decided I needed someone else with me if this didn't stop. Thankfully, after the longest 4 1/2 minutes of my life, he stopped. Still not a pretty site. No longer seizing, but not my sweet baby Joshua. Long story short, it was another febrile seizure. MD determined cause to be viral therefore nothing to do, but control the fever with Tylenol & Motrin.
The irony of this situation is that earlier in the day I had a conversation with a friend regarding the pressures on kids/teenagers today. We discussed the importance of instilling a strong spiritual foundation for our kids & how we could teach them perspective. Somewhere in this conversation, I heard myself say something to the affect of "I will not live in fear. I refuse to live my life fearful of the future." (Little did I know, I had a pretty scary incident coming up in my very near future.) During those 4 1/2 minutes (that might as well have been 4 1/2 hours), God reminded me of what had come out of my mouth just 3 hours earlier. I immediately chose not to fear (not really my nature if you don't know me very well). It sounds weird, but I felt a strong peace in my den with that sweet baby. I don't typically handle situations where I have absolutely NO CONTROL very well. This was different. I didn't feel like I needed to have control. God did. I didn't feel the need to freak out - God had my baby. I can honestly say I do not fear. Bad things happen...I feel surrounded by cancer & other disease but God has it all. My stress will not change that. I need to just let GOD be GOD & do his thing!
God continues to use this child to strengthen my faith & I am so thankful. So thankful He called Scott & I to adopt, so thankful He chose this little boy for our family, so thankful I was with him when the seizure took place, so thankful it didn't happen when he was with a new babysitter the afternoon before, so thankful Autumn was able to get my older children & take care of them after school, so thankful for my precious husband who was there as quickly as possible, so thankful that Joshua is okay, so thankful for 3 beautiful, healthy children, so thankful that MY GOD is continuing to reveal himself to me in such a real & personal way.